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2//never meant to so cold\\

[14 Nov 2005|09:38pm]
check out the icon...me and my bestest!! ;o)
right now im on the phone with Grant...he gets out of the Marines on Friday...im so excited! hes my favorite cousin...i love him!!! ;o)

4//never meant to so cold\\

[06 Dec 2004|06:44am]
[ mood | sick ]

Firday- School and well nothing really other than going and gettin the ole hair done and gettin ready for the dance.

Friday Night-The dance was, well GreaT after i dumped my date and got to do my own thing. Haha. We wont even go there. BIG argurment on the way there! Ewww* Lol. Logan was my LifESaveR. Lol

Saturday Morning- Got up and went to the store wtih Dad. Thats a REAL joy. Haha. we are sooo not gettin along at the current moment. I cant stand him!

Saturday Evening- Took a nap and then Melony called and woke me up and then I proceeded to go see my mamaw and papaw and then i went down Mel's for a while and wrapped her presents and we talked for a while about the events of the week.. Haha no details are needed* and then i watched to UT Ballgame there and well i got pissed off and left when Tennessee lost! Dear GOd.. I hate when that Happens! and then i went to bed...Woopie!

Sunday Morning- Woke up and got ready for church and then went over to Josh and Joyces and we all decided we didnt want to go so i stayed there all day as usual and wrpped gifts and just layed around.

Sunday Evening- Sandra Brought Livi home about 1ish and she was HypeD and we all played and he finally wore down so Joyce and I went to Norton and Wise and bought a few Christmas Presents. and then i boguht Lov some cute lil Converses. oh i loved em! I got my film developed from the dance and of Olivia....they turned out GreaT! i was sooo happy! Then we came on back home and i went back to my house about 9 or so and wrapped gifts there and then i went on to bed.

Monday Morning- woke up and got ready for school and well here i sit....Ugh! I hate Mondays! But maybe this on will be okay? Haha who knows???

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3//never meant to so cold\\

[01 Dec 2004|06:27am]
[ mood | moody ]

"And some how I miss him, I think I'll really miss him....One Day"



It's so hard for me to keep my secrets to myself. This is one that I just need to get out to someone, but at the same time, I'm not sure if anyone needs to know?........



"I told myself this was the last time, but I had to go one more time, and there he was, and all that he said was, "I'll Love You 'Til The End"

9//never meant to so cold\\

[22 Nov 2004|06:20am]
[ mood | dorky ]

Got my learner's....
Got a car...........
Got my friends......*Candace, my best*
Got my FreedoM......
Life is GreAt.......



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Well i do love Marylin....but im straight so therefore i wouldnt want to bang her....but im flattered that shed want to bang me ....i guess???

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-They're all watching us now, they think we're falling in love* [12 Nov 2004|11:58am]
[ mood | blah ]

Well Guys, Hey*

Im sittin here in Accounting lookin on AE and well nothing else really*

Last night i think went a lil too well. *tear* Shew. But im over it today.* Even though i do have to let it go...Ill be fine. Thanks for wishin me Luck* :o)

Sommer and I have a goal*- I hope that it goes like we planned* Im so excited about it* haha

Im now talkin to Noell- We do this every day in accounting* Haha* I love her*

Today has been a *BlaH* day.* I hate it*

I want to eat Chinese* yum*

I hope my dad will be in a good mood today* Thats all i need is for him to gripe at me* Ewwww..I hate him*

But anyways im gonna go*

I love you all

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//never meant to so cold\\

[11 Nov 2004|11:50am]
[ mood | flirty ]

In one of last years enteries (Sept 30, 2003) I wrote, "It seems like everytime i get something good going for me it has to screw up* Oh well, everything happens for a reason I do believe"
Well I find myself in that postion yet again* I think that there is no need to keep doin the same thing over and over in life, but for some reson i do keep on doing the same thing. over and over and over!!!And i know that i cant handle "distance relationships" so why do i keep trying? i just cant figure this one out....I mean i cant do it...Ive tried and still yet i am in this position..I coundt even handle a relationship with a St.Paul guy, let alone a lil farther away...i just am in a dilemma


I guess well just see how it goes tonight* Wish me Luck :o)

1//never meant to so cold\\

[09 Nov 2004|06:23am]
I heard this song this morning and it totally cracked me up!







"We Are Australian"

I came from the dream time, from the dusty red soil plains,
I am the ancient heart - the keeper of the flame,
I stood upon the rocky shore, I watched the tall ships come,
For forty thousand years I'd been the first Australian.
We are one but we are many
And from all the lands on earth we come,
we share a dream,
And sing with one voice,
I am, you are, we are Australian.
I came upon the prison ship bound down by iron chains
I cleared the land, endured the lash and waited for the rains.
I'm a settler, I'm a farmer's wife on a dry and barren run
A convict then a free man, I became Australian.
I'm the daughter of a digger who sought the mother lode
The girl became a woman on the long and dusty road
I'm a child of the depression, I saw the good times come
I'm a bushy, I'm a battler, I am Australian.
We are one but we are many
And from all the lands on earth we come,
we share a dream,
And sing with one voice,
I am, you are, we are Australian.
I'm a teller of stories, I'm a singer of songs
I am Albert Namatjira, and I paint the ghostly gums
I am Clancy on his horse, I'm Ned Kelly on the run
I'm the one who waltzed Matilda, I am Australian.
I'm the hot wind from the desert, I'm the black soil of the plains
I'm the mountains and the valleys, I'm the drought and flooding rains
I am the rock, I am the sky, the rivers when they run
The spirit of this great land, I am Australian.
We are one but we are many
And from all the lands on earth we come,
we share a dream,
And sing with one voice,
I am, you are, we are Australian.

//never meant to so cold\\

[04 Nov 2004|06:31am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

Well im sittin here in CIS and i was looking back at my journal entries from the past and it got me to thinking...so here it goes*
I think that everything in my life has happened for a reason. This time 2 years ago i *thought* i was in love, and i thought that i had it all going for me and there was nothing to lose. Needless to say i lost it all.* Its funny how times change, and how people change* I cant believe how much i have grown up and changed* This time last year i was gettin ready to get myself in a world of trouble* And well that brought me down for hte longest time...I still think about it everyday* Its funny how in 1 year i have done a complete turn-around* And to think that my whole perspective on life changed all becasue of one accident and one person* And thinking back, everything that i done in defnese of him was not worth it. and to think that one lil move or one word that came out of my mouth could have changed everything about him too....Sometimes i wish i would have spoken up instead of defending* Thats what i regret the most* And sittin here i think now that i have turned into someone that my parents are porud of, despite all of my imperfetions and everything that i have put them through* I think that everything that has went on in my life the past 2 or 3 years has made me stronger.* and made me a better person*...Because Lord knows i have been throught a lot just in the past year* And now thinking about it....when i fall in love it will be forever* and it will be with the right person, the person that loves me too* And for now im not looking for that "special someone" that a lot of girls my age are looking for...Im just waiting on God to send me the right person- and having fun and being me while im waiting* And i dont know why i said all of this but it just got to lingering on my mind..so i figured id update about it* Love yall*



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//never meant to so cold\\

-Sometimes the feeling is right...* [03 Nov 2004|05:46am]
[ mood | sick ]

Well, I figured it was time for another update...My 1 day break was well, interesting..to say the least* Noell and I had a BlasT Tuesday night :o) No details are needed *wild to the max*..Wednesday i went to Dad's store, ugh* thats never any fun. I sat around there all day and watched the news and talked to my dad some just about general stuff. We are car searching now so im excited. Its about time i finally get one.* Then well, we got into a huge argument (never good)We stopped by McDonalds *yum*. Later on i went up to Josh and Joyce's, Josh was the only one home so i talked to him for a while and then Joyce and the Baby came home and Jen called and wanted us to go watch a movie with her, so she came and got us and we went up there, i got really sick* Ugh* But the movie was good -Jersey Girl-, Really sad i thought. I got home about 10ish and talked to my Mom for a lil while and then went on to bed. I really didnt sleep too good last night.. I dunno why but i just didnt* And about 5:30 or so i went to sleep really good and then at 6:30 mom hollered at me so, well, i had to get up. Today im feeling pretty crappy. I had no voice this morning but the more i talk the better i gets..And i have a lil bit of a temp. I hope its not like the flu or anything.* I die* Lierally* I just got done doing work, so i have like a bizillion hours to do nothing now* :o) Its okay tho* I still owe some accounting make-up work that hasnt been done yet, due to the fact that my book is in Noell's car.* Ah Lord* Tonight i think that Sommer and I might go up to BZ. Shes been wanting me to for a while so i guess we will. Or i might just go to my church..Who knowS? Tomorrow night, ah me and Noell will prolly do something and Friday night, Ballgame...Im either going with Noell or Candace one...But enoguh for now, im going to talk to Candace*


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//never meant to so cold\\

Guess whos back??? [29 Oct 2004|06:22am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

HEY ALL! Its been months sine ive updated...Ive missed this, nope?
So anyways everything is -good-
This year is flying by, i get my leanrers this month, im so excited* Candace and I are going to New York together when she goes off to College...We just planned it* Awe she i my Best Girl* I love her* Grant, well hes back in Iraq, i do miss him. We got so clsoe before he had to leave....It makes me cry* This year is so different....But its awesome. I dyed my hiar again, redish-brown, really dark* I love it* me and my parents get along -great- now. Im so happy, i think is mostly becasue my attitude toward everything has changed, and the poeple that im with* But im all smiles- no complaints* :o) I mostly stay with Josh and Joyce though..And Liv* They are my family away from family. The best ever* Keepin me outta trouble* I have gotten really colse to Noell this year, its funny how one minute you dont even know someone and the next your like best friends* Weird huh? I love it tho* School is great, grades are good, and im happy :O) Lol* Tonight i think that Candace and I are going to the PV. Coeburn game* LOL-were retards :o) I cant believe how lose me and her are...i love it tho* We will definitely be best friends forever...No doubt.* If i lose everyone else she will always be there* Ahh Lord* Well i think that im gonna go now.. I just thought id update...Love yall*

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3//never meant to so cold\\

:o) [19 Jul 2004|07:53am]
[ mood | numb ]

I dont love him anymore, just ask all my friends...honestly, he's the last thing on my mind...*

1//never meant to so cold\\

[02 Apr 2004|07:37am]
Hey Guys* ITs been ummmmm how long since the last update??? VERYYYY LONG huh? Well im still grounded from the computer...Mom and Dad arent home right now sooo yeah* The troulbe i got into is kinda a memory now* Its not so bad after-all* God has really made some changes and adjustments in my life, so i guess that helps as well* Well i really have so much to say i cant type all of it...Lol* and half of it well is just *MY* business* Lol* But ahhhh its all good* And life is wonderful* Im just in AWE at how ive changed...I mean im not *tosh* anymore..im *TOSH* LOL* Ahh that doenst sum up half of it* Haha* Im really excited about this evening..I have yet another youth confrence to go to this weekend...Just oppourtunities for me to get closer to God...Which i always love* :o) But for now i guess im gonna go and finish packing* Love you all*

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- we were meant to live for so much more....have we lost ourselves? -

1//never meant to so cold\\

[01 Feb 2004|10:11pm]
No more updates for a LONNNNNGGGGGG time* :o)


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7//never meant to so cold\\

[05 Dec 2003|05:41pm]
you are deeppink
#FF1493

Your dominant hues are red and magenta. You love doing your own thing and going on your own adventures, but there are close friends you know you just can't leave behind. You can influence others on days when you're patient, but most times you just want to go out, have fun, and do your own thing.

Your saturation level is high - you get into life and have a strong personality. Everyone you meet will either love you or hate you - either way, your goal is to get them to change the world with you. You are very hard working and don't have much patience for people without your initiative.

Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.
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*OKAY, COMMENT AND TELL ME IF THIS IS TRUE OR NOT?? LOL--*

4//never meant to so cold\\

this is me....then* [30 Nov 2003|05:28pm]
[ mood | horny ]

Hey Guys*
Im actually goinna give a real update this time i do think...instead of the lil sentences?* Theres really not much to read when its just ONE sentence. Okay so anyways, I just got back from Gatlinburg and shew im tellin ya....im so exhausted* plus sick-It couldnt get any beytter than this huh? Lol But it was a much needed get away--I was stressin BAD* :o) But i think im gonna jump on to *Randoms* now...casue there is some random thoughts drifting around right now*

* Randoms *

- This weekend was -GrEaT-
- I need to talk to my BEST girl, Candace...{tear}
- Ames and I need to talk about some things...I just need to get off my chest* Ahhhh shes always here for me--I love you Ames
- I CAN'T WAIT TIL CHRISTMAS BREAK....for several different reasons ;o)
- There were a few people in my life that no longer needed tobe in it...so they became deleted from "t0shiie's Life List" this past week :o) Lol- Great name huh?
- Im the Bitch in every situation...ive come to reason with that.
- I miss one of my old friends.....Weve not talked in about a month- I just dont know how to approach her. :o(
- Jordan kicked my butt this morning wrestling...Shew :o) Lol
- Im finally gettin my life sorted out.
- I had an unexpected visitor a lil while ago. :o\ Yeah...you know how that goes.
- Me and Dad....Argue, argue, argue..... Lol
- Me and Mom....Well, yeah...Its yeah* Lol
- Shew, school is kicking my butt*-Geometry is anyway...Damn
- Im all out of randoms....how did this happen? Lol

Well im out now* I love you all

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3//never meant to so cold\\

Ugh.....Im so sick of this* [21 Nov 2003|10:05am]
[ mood | stressed ]

Well. Its all so Ugh* Im sick of it..................Yeah*



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2//never meant to so cold\\

:o) [18 Nov 2003|09:37am]
[ mood | loved ]

Now I'm so in love...So deep in love with [you]*



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1//never meant to so cold\\

Im me...Love me or hate me* [14 Nov 2003|10:10am]
Something on my mind:

Sometimes people cant help the way the act or the things they say, some words may be hurtful, yes...But its life, we all go through it. Yet, if someone says something to someone thats hurtful and didnt mean it that way, it could end up in a rucuss* I dont get it* If you didnt mean it then why in the heck dont people just get over it? This is *NOT* directed to anyone--It was just something lingering in my mind* I mean some people are just naturally like that...They say things before they think* I for one am that way....* But still, what happend to the forgiveness part in it all?* That's what puzzles me* But im out now*
This was a pointless entry..But like i said its something i had been wondering about...Stupid stuff like that just pops into my head quiet often*

I love you all*

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2//never meant to so cold\\

* Yet again....... [12 Nov 2003|10:12am]
I feel different...It's weird*
I dont feel like *ME* anymore...*
Maybe im just changing* Who knows?

1//never meant to so cold\\

* And yes, Life Gets Better....* [10 Nov 2003|07:27pm]
[ mood | ditzy ]

Hey Guys*
I finally finished my journal *ALL BY MYSELF*...Yeap Im proud* Ames did have to help me with the comment thing though becasue *I* screwed it up* So I have to give her like 2.5% Credit for it* Lol*
So anyways...Ive really got nothing to update about* First huh? Usually im full of shit to ramble on and on about but Im starting to get a lil more personal about life in general* I dont just tell it all on here anymore* Haha* Everything gets screwed up if you spill it all out for the whole damn world to see* :o) I guess im going through one of those "personal person" modes* It happens to the best of us* :o)
But here lately I do find myself becoming careless about some things and careful about some things* Im more careless than careful though* But again I guess its just one of those things we all go through* But needless to say Im content with the way things are right now* VERY content at that* :o)
This week they are having a revival at our church...which I will not be attending. So that means some time to myself* Much needed* PLus i have a shit load of geometry homework as well that has to be completed and a term paper for English* So yeah* I think thats reason enough to stay home* :o)
But I do believe i have rambled on enough about Nothing at all* So im out* I love you all*



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